Monthly Archive for May, 2010

A Medal for My Mother

I thought that A Mountain of Crumbs was my memoir.  I didn’t know that it was my mother who would become the core of the story, the “rock-solid mother,” as theDaily Beastcalled her in celebration of Mother’s Day.

Almost seventy years ago, in the spring of 1942, a woman carried an unconscious nine-year-old boy into the make-shift hospital where my mother was a surgeon, one kilometer away from the front.  It was April, and when the ice on the Volga turned porous and frail, mines frozen into the river began to explode, touched off by the slightest shift, sending flocks of birds into the air and schools of fish to the water surface, belly up.  Locals with buckets, driven by wartime hunger, waded into the river to collect the unexpected harvest floating among chunks of ice, setting off more mines.

It was prohibited to treat civilians in a military hospital, but my mother unbuttoned the boy’s quilted jacket and muddy pants and carefully pulled them away from his perforated flesh, revealing blind belly wounds: entrances of shells with no exists.  She lifted a scalpel out of the boiling water, made an incision, and pulled apart flaps of skin, exposing multiple intestinal wounds, big and tiny holes in the coils of the boy’s belly.  Then she removed each piece of shrapnel, rinsed the boy’s intestines with antiseptic, and sewed up the holes, one by one.

Every day the soldiers came in trucks from the front and although she scooped the lice out of the wounds with a teacup and cleaned the flaps of torn tissue as diligently as she could, lice festered in layers of dirty bandages, keeping the wounded awake and screaming through the night.  They were younger than she was, those wounded boys – her brother’s age – and she peered into their dusty faces, clinging to a shred of hope that in some miraculous way her brother, stationed on the border with Poland when German tanks crossed into Russia on June 22, 1941, would be brought into her hospital for her to heal from seven hundred kilometers away.  She hoped her brother was not among the thousands of bodies she knew had been plowed into the warm summer earth of western Russia.  She hoped for a quick victory in the Great Patriotic War, as World War II is still known in her old country.

Her brother never came home, and the Victory took five long, excruciating years.

May 9, 2010, was the 65th anniversary of the defeat of Nazi Germany, a holiday that is visceral to every Russian.  A Fedex package from the Russian Consulate in New York addressed to my mother arrived at my house in New Jersey, where she has been living with me for 22 years.  In it was a letter from the Consul to all living veterans of the Great Patriotic War, a certificate issued in my mother’s name, and a medal.  It was her third medal; she received her first one during the war and her second – for the 50th anniversary of the Victory.  My mother put on her best dress, pinned the medal to her chest, and offered to help me make pirozhki for our celebration.  We rolled the dough and chopped eggs and scallions side by side in our kitchen.  Here in America, it was also Mother’s Day.

Mushrooms

My brother-in-law had a house in Fallsburg, the Catskill Mountains.  The Kastilsky Mountains, as the saleswoman at the Russian deli in Brighton Beach called it.  She was busy ladling salad Olivier from a plastic bucket when a regular customer asked her where she was going for a vacation.  “Kastilsky Mountains!” she yelled back, giving me a false impression of a strong Slavic influence over American geography.

It was the first time I was going to meet my brother-in-law and his family, and I wanted to make a good impression.  They lived in a creaky house with a compost pile in the back, next to outcroppings of rhubarb and a grouping of tomato plants fighting for sunshine against tall weeds the size of small trees.  Patches of strawberry plants crept toward the woods and disappeared into a forest of nettles.  The word dacha – really nothing more than an overgrown plot of land my parents’ summer place had deteriorated into after my father’s death – floated up in my mind and made me think of mushrooms.

The timing and the place were perfect: it was late August, and all around the house stretched a forest of pines and aspens and even an occasional birch, the name of a foreign-currency store in Leningrad no Russian was allowed to enter.  There were no baskets in the house, so I picked up a Pathmark plastic bag and headed for the woods.

Through the loam of brown leaves and crumbling branches, as far as I could see, sprouted mushrooms: red caps on stout stems flecked with black; gray caps on long, skinny legs; and the best mushrooms called belye – the Zeus of the mushroom Olympus – with velvety tops the color of chocolate.  Some were in their prime, others – crumbling from age, a sight you never see in a Russian forest where every mushroom is picked before it has a chance to grow to its full size.  Twenty minutes later – a record for a mushroom hunt – my plastic bag was full.

Back in the house, I was ready for a frying pan and butter.  “What are these?” said my niece, 3, wrinkling up her nose.  Her mother gave my husband a startled look and pulled her daughter closer.  As I cleaned and diced the mushrooms and piled them into the pan, a small circle formed around me to watch: my husband, my brother-in-law, his wife, my husband’s parents, and someone who seemed to have walked in and stayed.  The familiar aroma of the dacha filled the kitchen as the mushrooms sizzled into a perfect, dark, meaty stew.  It tasted thick and foresty, just like it did back home.  “It’s ready,” I announced with a generous smile.  “Please have some.  Everyone should try it.”

No one moved.  They stood in a silent circle around the stove, staring at the steaming heap in the pan.  No one reached for a plate.  No one rushed to set the table in anticipation of a feast, as they would have done back in Russia.  The smell of wild mushrooms didn’t excite anyone but me.  A scary thought popped into my head: if these people had never heard of eating wild mushrooms, what other things in life that I knew how to do, were alien to them?  What else about me would frighten them, make them suspicious, turn them against me?

I felt pitiful and hopeless under the stare of seven people who wouldn’t try the mushrooms I’d gathered and cooked for them.  It dawned on me that my mother could have been right, after all, when she warned me that America was the mouth of a shark.  It was even worse, I thought: it was the mouth of an alien shark, odd and unknown, and I had no clue where to watch out for the teeth.

As we all stood there in silence, my husband took the fork from my hand, drove it deep into the pile of mushrooms I made, and filled his mouth with the fragrant stew.  “Excellent,” he announced as he chewed and swallowed.  “I highly recommend it,” he said as everyone looked away and promptly disappeared.